Monday

Monday--
Work what do I do, well lets see I answer phones all day an deal with my co workers crap an then I get a nice hour lunch break that seems to get shorter everyday an then oh yeah back to my trusty telephone. Well today was a normal day except dodge texted me. I was smiling like no other. An no I'm not gonna give all the credit to a boy, I was looking exceptionally good today an my co workers an a few guys on my lunch break noticed an well yeah it always makes a girls day. So he’s coming over tonight to watch some movies my roommate is gone till wed. THANK YOU LUBBOCK for needing Natalie. Maybe he’ll kiss me or something heck I need to get a signal. So he cant wait to come over he says, flirts with me saying I'm special an I'm making his day… you know I'm crazy not to think he likes me right? Well true he does say all this but man I wish he would just flat say it “Jane I like you I wanna be with you please oh please be my girlfriend”
OK maybe not that desperate but something along those lines are always nice. So in my head at work I'm planning the perfect relaxing outfit (don’t get me started I'm a girl its what we do) I'm thinking the cute green shorts with the white tank top an a football t shirt to show off my cute legs an make me still look damn hot. Then there’s the fact of what underwear to wear. Not BC he’s gonna see it but in case it leads there.. (no worries mom I'm a good girl) but as they taught in girl scouts always be prepared. (now I wasn’t exactly a girl scout but I bought enough of those damn cookies I should be an honorary member or something). So I chose the cute Victoria secret purple striped thong, makes the shorts look better no lines, an I get dressed making sure it all looks color coordinated. I give me self a quick once over an I think to myself DAMN!!
So I check around the house am make sure everything looks good an relax to the couch to watch gossip girl. Then my phone rings
“hey baby”-dodger
“oh hey dodge what’s up”
“I think I'm out side your house it has a wreath on the door right?”
“yup”
“OK darlin well I'm outside”
“OK bye”
I run to my room put some of my favorite lotion on that makes me smell oh so good check my hair an then casually open the door.
OH GEE!!-- He is way cuter than I remember.
We sit an watch one tree hill checking the score of the ranger game every commercial. He’s all cuddled up with me on the couch asking questions an commenting on the show. Finally it ends an it reminds me why I love that show. We both realize we’re starving so we head to the kitchen an find something to eat, but my roommate has left us with nothing but pasta or eggs so we choose pasta an while we’re cooking we turn the radio on an argue over which band is better. HELLO plain white t’s an the cure is so much better than the used. But I move on, dinner turns out really good an my girlie side of me feels amazing BC I can cook on spur of the moment for a guy an it come out pretty good. We head back to the living room to watch a movie an we choose Marley an me. I know I know chick flick but we haven't seen it an we both love dogs.
~~ 2 hours later~~
*sniffles “that was such a good movie” I say while trying not to burst into total tears.
He looks at the clock, “babe its time for you to go to bed you have work”
So we head to my room (its already been decided he’s gonna stay over). We make it to the bed an I'm all snuggled close my head on his shoulder an he starts kissing my forehead, an my nose then I look up an he catches my lips. Quite taken by surprise I lean in an fall into his kiss. A little moan escapes my lips as he kisses me so softly. Then it starts to get more passionate he gets on top an I wrap my arms around him an pull him close he is touching me all over, (over my clothes no worries). God his kisses are so gentle yet demanding it makes me want him so bad. He leans up an goes for my shorts “NOOO” I stagger
“what oh I'm sorry I got caught in the moment”
“no its fine just I wanted to wait awhile”
“babe its no problem”
“you sure??”
“yes positive”
A few seconds go by…
Dodge finally says “ can I please kiss you again”
I'm shocked by his question “oh yes by all means” I reply
He leans in an kisses me
(He understands I'm not ready!)
(He’s not pushing me!)
(HE IS A FRIGGIN GOOD KISSER!)
Finally I say dodge I need to sleep so we get back to cuddling an he’s rubbing my back an kissing my forehead an I am so content. I can see myself falling for him… maybe not now but someday.
“Jane, Jane, Jane,”
"HUH?"
"Babe you just jumped are you OK?"
"Oh yeah just not use to someone being in my bed with me but its nice"
I turn around an face him, an give him a big kiss.
“ so what makes me different from other girls” I ask
"your personality it matches mine"
"Well I can see some of it, we have similar interests but our favorites in those interests are very opposite."
"I know Jane but, I can argue with you about how my music is better, how dodge is better than Chevy an the dodges are way better than the rangers. An you don’t just fall suite an agree you fight for your side an make it fun to fight with you."
“so how long do you see this going”
As soon as the question leaves my lips I regret it.
“well…” he starts counting on his fingers behind my back
"HEY!!”
"Ha ha babe I'm just kidding honestly I don’t see an end, you’re my dream girl why would I let you go”
He leaves me speechless an all I can do is kiss him, I snuggle close an drift off to sleep. No need to dream of him tonight he’s got his arms wrapped around me tight.

sunday night

“So I’ve made up my mind… I will pretend to leave this world behind, an in the end you’ll know I lied to get your attention, I’m faking my own suicide…..” Jane’s ipod radio blares out of her speakers as she gets ready for bed. Just another Sunday night as Jane thinks to herself. She’s showered, brushed her hair, an replied to all the texts in the past 5 min, she crawls into bed an grabs her laptop to check her facebook an myspace one last time before crashing for the night. “what shall I post tonight?” questions Jane. She writes the normal things, “nice relaxing day time for bed.” then as she goes to log out her phone rings. She rushes to close the laptop an grabs her cell acting oh so cool…
"Hello" - jane
"Hey jane its me"
“Oh hey dodger whats up?”
“Nothing just finishing up some school work an was thinking of you thought I’d give you a call "
“Well gee dodge, you’re a sweetie”
"Well I try… soo yeah are we still on for sat, you know I love my baseball"
"Of course of course"-- she replies trying not to sound eager
"That is if you still wanna go with me, I know im not the best fan.. but for you I could give them a shot."- dodger
"Well gee dodge you sure know how to make a girl feel special"
"It’s a god given talent"
"An you use it so well"
"But seriously jane I think it would be better if you were there cheering an wearing that cute little blue jean skirt.."
"Hey hey hey who said anthing about a little skirt"
"Well.. You know.. I was just thinking.."
"Pssh yeah well jeans will do just nicely."
"Well cheya of course babe your call."
(he called me babe, jane thinks to herself… if only I knew if he meant it)
"Sure yeah so im gonna finish this paper then text you later or in the morning,"- dodger
"Night babe,"- dodger
"Night dodger."
Yup just another Sunday night..

Hi im jane an that was just a typical night for me, getting into bed talking to the boy I have the biggest crush on an what seems like normal flirting always tends to leave me confused at what he feels for me.
Now don’t get me wrong im 20 so im not looking for serious but a boyfriend would be nice. Lets start off with the basics, im jane 20 living with a roommate in north texas, 5’3 gorgeous brown hair, killer brown eyes, curves that make me hate my family an oh yeah im single. FUN right? My roommate however is a incredibly thin 28 yr old name Natalie, Nat for short an she is a amazing business woman who makes me envious every time she steps out of her room. An that guy I was talking to Dodger, he’s a guy I met off the internet, now don’t get me started Craigslist.com is totally legal its like the local classifieds online an well of course they have a personals an well he posted I responded an we’ve been talking ever since. I know, I know its not romantic but hey this is 2009 everything is done over the internet why not meeting great guys. Plus I have totally met him already an let me tell you his ad didn’t do him justice. We went on a dinner movie date he didn’t try to kill me once, well there was the close call with the knife at dinner gosh guys laugh a little take a joke no worries he was a complete gentleman. He didn’t even kiss me at the end of the date HENCE the confusion. I would say im a pro at flirting but when it comes to interpereting what the guy means, im at a loss for words. He will smile, scoot closer maybe even hold my hand, but how do i know he isnt just trying to get in my pants. however i'll cross that bridge when i get to it. till then im going to sleep dreaming of my dodger an in those dreams im all his.